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Hey
If you have me on your friends list,
I've changed my name.
I'll be keeping this around for sentimental reasons just cuz I've had it almost a year.......
My new name is:
AwaitingJupiter
also:
you can reply to anything here...or there.
Doesn't matter.
<3 yas.
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This is a start of an intro. It sucks so badly.
American literature is filled with fascinating stories centered around the average small town lives of seemingly ordinary people. Poetry, short stories and classic novel possess parallel themes in their portrayals of homely characters and their quests for truth and innocence in life. "~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~" Through common literary devices, Winesburg, Ohio by Sherwood Anderson and "Good Country People" by Flannery O'Connor similary capture the essences of truth and innocence.
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The firmest and noblest ground on which people can live is truth; the real with the real; a ground on which nothing is assumed, but where they speak and think and do what they must, because they are so and not otherwise. -- Emerson
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"Through our own recovered innocence we discern the innocence of our neighbors."
Help guys. lol
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hey guys--
for english im doing this stupid essay -- piece by piece everyday.
anyway, for the intro i have my thesis and such but i really want a good quote to open the paper up.
my thesis is:
Through common literary deviced, Winesburg, Ohio by Sherwood Anderson and "Good Country People" by Flannery O'Connor similarly capture the essences of truth, innocence and beauty.
first, i think I'm going to drop one of the topics, probably beauty because I think truth and innocence kind of go hand in hand easier.
Second, I want an intro quote.
I found this, but i don't know how well it fits:
"All good books are alike in that they are truer than if they had really happened."
I dunno.
HELP! :(
I hate essays.
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| Time: | 8:14 am. |
| Mood: |  pensive. | | Music: | the rain outside. mmm. |
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Though hail isn't peaceful, it is wonderful to wake up with a loud crack of thunder, followed by hours of cool rain & the smell of cleanliness outside.
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"Love is like a wind stirring the grass beneath trees on a black night," he had said, "You must not try to make love definite. It is the divine accident of life. If you try to be definite and sure about it and to live beneath the trees, where soft night winds blow, the long hot day of disappointment comes swiftly and the gritty dust from passing wagons gathers upon lips inflamed and made tender by kisses."
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| Subject: | Help!! |
| Time: | 9:07 am. |
| Mood: |  determined. | | Music: | extraordinary - better than ezra. |
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Everyone/anyone:
PLEASE give me a list of fast songs...like workout music.....please :)
I don't care for rap, anything else is good though, esp something rock/alternative ish.
<3
(cramps suck like a ......)
thanks guys
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I thought your idea was interesting, Linds, and I kind of wanted to post it here so we could get some other ideas if possible....(HEY PEOPLE, IF YOU WANT TO REPLY, POST IT HERE....)
I'll post the "prompt"
Ok guys. I was talking to Dave S, and he brought up something that I can't stop thinking about. He told me that Mr. Bounds said in class one day that he believes people can't be happy without love. He meant opposite sex Moulin Rouge type love. I stated my case to him, but I don't think he agrees with me based on his own circumstances.
SO...I want to see what ALL of you have to say about this. PLEASE email me back with your thoughts. I just want to have some more opinions on the matter to see what the people closest to me think.
THANKS!
~LAT/Kinna~
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Let's see where I can go with this:
Life's always kind of been a paradox for me. I never have seen true love in my life and in reality, I never figured I'd see it because of who I am. I'm a hardheaded, stubborn girl. etc.
I kind of danced through my life considering my problems. I don't think I've ever really been happy. Being Happy is kind of a weird thing. Being happy involves liking who you are, what you are and what's inside of you unconditionally. At least, I've always assumed that since I've never really been happy.
My life's always been about people being better than me or how I'm not this and I'm such a somethingoranother. I've never been Kelly and I've never been happy because I can't be Kelly.
Where did I find myself, I don't know. I still don't think I've found myself in these 17 and a half years here. Maybe I will when I die.
Religiously, you know how I feel about this. Life is about searching for knowledge, devouring something wholey and completely and feeling completely satiated when doing it. We all want the knowledge of something or everything.
This is where Winesburg, ohio comes in.
I think really, Winesburg is the Gnostic book. People in there are all living their lives by a truth. Though they aren't happy necessarily, they are living by it.
I'm reminded most of the chapter "Sophistication", which I bet is where Mr. Bounds brought this up. Dr. Reefy begins talking to Elizabeth, going on and on about Love and how it's so tender and how you can't hold on to it too tightly, and how a kiss beneath the moonlit keeps it close.
I think Love is happiness. Love, as in opposite sex/same sex (depending) Moulin Rouge love. But here's the thing: I don't think it is the absolute happiness in the world.
We are all here seeking out our own "happiness" and maybe some of us don't need the love to be truly happy. I know I've found love *true love* and I am happy. I've discovered so much about myself through him and me. He's made me search deeper into who I am than what I am used to. He won't let me settle for being less than who I am. He's my driving force through the day, yet at night I know I have his comfort and warmth (even if he's not here with me).
I think learning about yourself leads to this happiness. Maybe it's who you're learning it from. I've learned it through love. People learn things about themselves through others and through other things (not necessarily people).
An Example for me would have to again be Winesburg. I've learned a lot about who I am and what my truths are in life. Mine happens to be the truth of love, like Dr. Reefy. After unhappiness and unsettled things with it, it's still able to occur and blossom.
Someone else's happiness may derive from superiority. Thinking of Enoch, he wasn't happy around people because he felt inferior to them (this is a psychological thing too, the strive for superiority). When he was with his "people"...all 2 dozen of his people, he was happy. He felt supiorior to them. He didn't need love (And it was obvious: he had a wife and they divorced. He had a chance with a woman who claimed she really understood him, and he swore her out of his life). And it did mention in the text, with these fake people, HE WAS HAPPY.
So maybe my theory seems a little confusing, but I don't think all people need love to truly be happy. People's happiness derives from the way in which they discover who they are. They can't be happy until they are happy with themselves, by whatever means possible.
---I don't think Bounds loves his wife in the way that he thinks he does, either. He always makes these comments about her and stuff that REALLY make me wonder. If a man loved his wife as he claims he does, he wouldn't have these comments and he'd never THINK about sharing them with all these kids every day. I don't think Bounds is a happy man. I think he's lonely and upset. I don't think he has the 133 friends he claims he has. I think he IS Enoch Robinson and makes this all up. I hate to bash him, but every story he has shared has had inconsistencies.
It's funny. Hopper last year used to tell us all these stories like Bounds did, except you KNEW Hopper's were lies. He made the lies blatently obvious. My favorite was the day he told us "never believe 80% of the things teachers tell you. It's lies". And he's right.
I think Bounds is a groteque. I think he's a lonely, old man who makes things up so he looks good in front of his kids. Don't get me wrong, he's a VERY nice man and easy to talk to, but he's lonely.
and he doesn't REALLY love his wife like he thinks he does.
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No is good to sex with mop. Spread the word.
Created by meganthegnarly Because she's kickass (of course kelly has something to do with it too)
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| Time: | 1:26 pm. |
| Mood: |  sad. | | Music: | wish list - pearl jam. |
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i hate it when we fight.
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It's been assumed I've quit.
My part here's done. hah.
I love Easter because it's offical eat as much candy as you can in one day-day.
I've eaten about 15 recees thingies, mr goodbars (Mmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmyyyyyyyyyyyyy favorrrrrrriittttteeeeeee) and working on wacky wafers now.
yep.
Happy Easter guys.
 The kitty loaf shall
invade Livejournal!
Long Live Kitty Loaf!
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Saturday, March 30th, 2002
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I dyed my hair red.
Like purple red.
Like, I'm a redhead.
it rocks.
So, upon my 3 mile rollerblading excursion, my mother questions me
"If something were to happen to you, want me to keep it red?"
i laughed.
The Queen Mum died. The house here is sad. We're all royal family followers
and plan on watching the funeral when it occurs.
it's a sad week.
that's death #3 though, so we're safe for a while.
"lets strip down...one evening's love starts with a kiss"
happy Easter.
Happy Birthday Megan.
::has nothing of value to say::
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tho not bad. but low. I didn't make high honors...but if Bounds put the changed grade up, I would have.
Spanish 2: A-
English 3 honors: B+ (A- since he changed it)
AP Psych: B+
Adv Alg & Trig: B-
Civics Honors: B+
Honors P.E./Leadership: A+ (HAHAAAAA)
Journalism: A-
le sigh.
i quit badminton.
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Thursday, March 28th, 2002
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I forgot to mention the highlight of the day.
Stew came up to me and said congrats today. I'm like..for what....
she said I got a couple poems in the Lit mag this year!
www.pathetic.org/library/1969
"I said the sky//"
and
"Bedrooms in atlanta"
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| Time: | 4:18 pm. |
| Mood: |  sick. | | Music: | singing "no such thing" in my head.. |
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i am quitting badminton.
i'd rather work my life away then live through another practice with people who don't even acknowledge my god damn existance.
fuckers.
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Wednesday, March 27th, 2002
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| Subject: | Break Down |
| Time: | 3:36 pm. |
| Mood: |  moody. | | Music: | dashboard confessional -- screaming infidelities. |
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Today, it happened. It just happened. I don't know why or where it really came from, but there I was in 2nd hour, and I couldn't stop crying. It just came and came. And Mrs. J asked me what was wrong or if she could help and I couldn't explain it.
I feel like Enoch Robinson. winesburg, ohio god this book is scary because it's....me.
But I kept crying. She asked if I wished to go to the bathroom to calm down and I said no because being alone makes it worse and being in a room with 25 other kids hinders your sobbing abilities.
And then walking out, Kelly Y started bawling her eyes out. Partially I think it was the empathy and part of it was the same thing in me. It just....you can't explain it.
I calmed down a bit 3rd hour, except my math teacher told me I was being too harsh saying a 24 on the ACT in math was bad. Well, to me it is because it brought down my 30's in reading and english.
She said I was crazy.
So 4th hour was just 4th hour. you know.
and 5th...we watched the first half of the 9/11 movie they played on CBS. I started crying again. Not like in 2nd hour, but it was more tears because of that whole thing. It WASN'T the whole thing, it was the firemen standing in the lobby, looking helpless and you could see their helplessness and...you just felt it.
I hate when people go around saying things about how others always understand you -- "someone is always in the same thing, or been there before and can help you"....but when you need someone who has, everyone turns the other way.
I am not bothering to go to practice today because I was informed it was at 4:30, not 3:00. So I went home and it's now 3:41 and I'm not going back because it's pointless.
Spring break is tomorrow afternoon. I think I'm going to die over it. Things now are so fucked up in life. Over break we have 2 full length AP practices, along with an class test, free response, huge huge huge English essay and ....did I mention? THE ACT APRIL 6TH.
I feel oddly attached to my winesburg, ohio . I don't get it. I feel each one of their struggles inside of me and it's just tough. Tonight is the last chapter. It's only 2 pages.
Dr. Reefy is my man. . . and . . .
Erik comes home tonight.
I miss Erik.
He's the only one who understands what I say when I don't say anything at all.
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I accept lindsey. but it hurt like a mother.
Mop sits behind me in class. He's such a stalker. HE NEVER talked in math before and now won't shut the hell up.
Frickin stalking me. haha. oh well. At least he's got cuteness and he's not a freak.
OMG YOU GUYS!
Erik bought me a 68 dollar solid gold ring...omg omg omg omg omg
i sometimes don't know what to do with him....other than absolutely adore him (tho -- he spends WAY too much on me).
Grades: TOO LOW
spanish: a-
english: b+
psych: a
math: b-
pe: a
Civics: b+
journalism: a-
GAH
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Have you ever...
01. Fallen for your best friend?: yep. dave.
02. Made out w/ JUST a friend?: nah.
03. Been rejected?: yes
04. Been in love?: i am with my erik.
05. Been in lust?: sure
06. Used someone?: no.
07. Been used?: no.
08. Cheated on someone?: yep. damion because he deserved it.
09. Been cheated on?: yes. Damion started it.
10. Been kissed?: yeah
11. Done something you regret?: I did mention I went out with Damion
Who was the last person...
12. You touched? Ashleigh -- big old hug
13. You talked to? Talking to Deborah and Chris
14. You hugged? Ashleigh
15. You instant messaged? personally? J.J.
16. You kissed? eeeeeeeerrriikkkk
18. You yelled at? The plainfield badminton chick who told me i was wrong -- heylo, i know my badminton bitch
19. You laughed witH? hmmm Megan
21. Who broke your heart? Well, no one.
Do you...
22. Color your hair? yes
23. Have tattoos? nope
24. Piercings? nope.
25. Have a boyfriend/girlfriend/both? my erik
27. Own a webcam? i have a digi.
28. Ever get off the damn computer? when i sleep.
29. Sprechen sie deutsche? Erik does.
30. Habla espanol? si. hablo espanol todos los dias y siempre me divirto.
31. Quack? ducky.
Have you / do you...
32. Stolen anything? who hasn't. I stole bread a couple nights ago.
33. Smoke? nope
44. Schizophrenic? nope.
45. Obsessive? very
46. Compulsive? very
47. Obsessive compulsive? very. it's sick
48. Panic? ive got panic attacks.
49. Anxiety? yes
50. Depressed? yes
51. Suicidal? no
52. Obsessed with hate? no..i used to be
53. Dream of mutilated bodies, blood, death, and gore? nope.
54. Dream of doing those things instead of just seeing them? no.
55. If you could be anywhere, where would you want to be? in erik's arms
56. Who would you be with? erik
57. What would you be doing? anything, basically.
58. What are you listening to? pete yorn
59. Can you do anything freakish with your body? I am double jointed in every finger
60. Chicken or fish? chicken
62. Is ice cream the best thing in the world? erik is
A - Age: 17
B - Best Quality: hair, eyes
C - Choice Of Meat: chicken
D - Dream Date: erik and a soft spot on the couch
E - Exciting Adventure: going out with e-cubed and attempting for us all to drive home from no-where land
F - Favorite Food: pizza. pasta.
G - Greatest Accomplishment: falling in love.
H - Happiest Day of Your Life: 3-15-01
I - Interests: music, books, learning, erik, parties, games, fun stuff
K - Kool-Aid: it's like berry mountain splash i believe
L - Love: erik boy :)
M - Most Valued Thing I Own: Will be the ring soon.
N - Name: kelly elizabeth
O - Outfit You Love: this pink and silver v-neck long sleeved shirt
P - Pizza Toppings: pepperoni
Q - Question Asked To You The Most: "Are you happy?" or the one i hate "Can you help me?"
S - Sport To Watch: football.
T - Television Show: simpsons...
U - Ur Favorite Song: "Walk on" u2
W - Winter: I hate it.
Y - Year Born: 1984
Z - Zodiac Sign: Libra
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